Can we please ignore the madness?

Ah, the madness. A.K.A. Me. I have figured out that I'm losing my mind. It's a slow process, but it's happening none-the-less. I was sitting in my room, minding my own business, when I started cracking up for no reason at all. I was listening to music at the time, so that might've had something to do with it. Maybe my last entry had a small part in it too, I've been extremely happy lately. And I love it! I do. I really really do. Being happy makes me feel like I can do things without totally screwing them up, like I have more energy. I'm alot less lazy now. I can go up the hall stairs two at a time without feeling tired. Losing my mind may just be something I feel happening, but it's probably the most sane conclusion. I'm losing my mind. I can accept it! YAY! No denial here! I've known it was possible for a few years now, but it's really becoming clearer. You can say I'm full of shit if you want, but it actually comforts me to have a reson to be as weird as I am.

And, to this entry, I dedicate No. 5 and Undead by Hollywood Undead. They make me feel so alive, weird? See! I'm just so happy to have more songs that make me feel good, and happy! Music really has saved me. It's my drug, I'm addicted and I never wanna be sober again!

Peace be with you and your band of strange buddies, like me and mine!

Wow, I'm......Happy.

SHOCK! I'm in a good mood, and I love-ish life! My dad went to our Home to fix it up today, I can't wait to move back there. This House is not a home...To quote TDG. I hate the House we live in now. Even though the other one is farther from my friends, it's comfortable and I love it. I'll be able to drive soon anyway. After years of shit and annoying relatives, we're finally getting back on our feet!.....Go us!

I've become caught up in this story I'm writing, it's about Vampire(surprise, surprise) I can't stop writing though! I get so many ideas and I have to write them down. It starts out a Jonacest, yes that, then turns into something so beautifully thought through, if I may flatter myself. There's so many characters fit into it, that I had a hard time not introducing them all at the same time. Most of them are based on real people, my friends, family, celebrities, ect. The mainish character, Lianne, is based loosely on me. Meye, based on my BFF. Joe, is, well Joe Jonas...Hehe. Kevin is Kevin Jonas, Nick is, well you get the idea. The one character I'm really proud of is Antonio, name frome my brother, but looks were all in my head. There's also Ranel, she's based on my really good friend/my brother's girlfriend. Then there's Paolo, ah, Paolo, my love, he's based on someone.....certain, an actor.....Not saying who. Ok, a hint......He's hawt, British, hawt, and I love him.......I didn't give away too much, I hope. Anywho, I really can't wait to post my story online soon, there's so much of it, I'll never be behind on writing. I'm a fast typer so it won't take long to post it and stuff. It will, of course, go on the Jonasfic site. I live there.

I've used so much paper, my poor binder must hate me. So many stories, so little paper. XD

In any case, I shall always write when I'm bored, which is alot......Pathetic. I still don't have a name for my story, but I hope to think of one soon. Let's see, a revenge-filled, angsty, romance/suspensful, Vampire story.......Hmmm.......I'll get back to you when my brain's working. I'm tempted to go write more, but I need a break, my hand is killing me!

Well, that's about it for now, oh, I'm beginning to like Paramore.....Eh. I like CrushCrushCrush, Decode, I Caught Myself, Emergency, Misery Business, and Riot...That's all so far.

Btw, ^that^ picture makes me happy.......Thus! I put it on here, keeping the theme. XD

Still dreading the weekend but totally axious at the same time,

Auf Wiedersehen!

And,

Bis bald!

Bloodsuckers.....Yes that kind.

I started reading Twilight......Yea, my stupid curiosity got to me. Actually, I hate to admit it, but I like it so far....I've read Twilight and New Moon and I have to admit I can't wait to read Eclipse. I'm not one of those yet. And I don't want to be.....I don't wanna end up with a broken nose or something....Being THAT obsessed is ridiculous. And yes I realize I'm more than that obsessed, or passionate if you will, for the Jonas Brothers....I'm trying hard to not push my passion off on other people. I'll hide it if I need to. But anywho, Edward isn't as bad as I was led to believe, though the sparkling gets a bit weird and annoying. But Bella, OH MY GOD! Shut the hell up for once! "I'm not special." "I don't know why you like me so much." "What do you see in someone as boring as me." SERIOUSLY! It's soooo annoying! I wanna strangle her and her annoying little "klutziness" if that's really what it is....Maybe she's just begging for attention...Well she got it. In a really pathetic way.....Edward sounds hawt, I have to say. The hair, the eyes, the....body. Yumm. Jacob is still my favorite though.....And Jasper. I love him, now. Go Jasper! Bite her! Woo! Reading the books made me feel a little anxious. My heart wouldn't stop beating super fast. Every moment it mentioned Edward pressing his lips to Bella Smella's, I got goosebumps. It's ridiculous, I know. But I get a little carried away. Don't judge my oddness. So, now my mom is hooked on them and she hasn't stopped bugging me about New Moon. I wouldn't give it to her because she reads faster than I do and by the time I get Eclipse, she'll be done with New Moon, then she won't stop bugging me to finish faster....Like that's possible, I finished New Moon in less than 2 days. It wasn't my favorite, but -and I NEVER say this- I couldn't put it down! Literally, I found myself sitting awake until 6 in the morning reading. Not just that one but Twilight too. They are highly addicting. It's almost a bad thing. Note: I said ALMOST....I LIKE it. It's hard to understand unless you live in my head, but yea. I'm rambling now, but bear with me please. I can't wait to see the movie! I hope it's as good as the books. I know it couldn't be better. I've heard both sides, it sucked, or it was awesome...I don't know which to believe but I'm leaning for the 'suck' side. We'll see this weekend. My mom and my friends are taking me to see it for my Birthday, even though we're going on Friday and my birthday is on Sunday. I'm old...Yes.......But back to the topic at hand, Twilight......My new half-obsession/passion.

Don't hate me for liking it, I promise I won't ramble endlessly about it. I have better control over myself than to put someone through that.

Thank you for understanding.

Be safe.